Don't Blink

I am not sure if it's just because I've hit the middle of my pregnancy recently or what, but I've been feeling very sad. Sad in a good way I guess. Everything is going so, so fast. I had lunch with my mom Saturday and told her how I was so scared that Lucas would only be a tiny newborn for such a short time. Each stage is so short! Then I heard the song "Don't Blink" on the radio today and it really hit me. Our baby is going to grow up so fast. We're going to get old. What if I miss being pregnant and can never get pregnant again? What if Lucas is 10 years old and I long for him to be 3 months old? What if I become a grandparent before I know it and time goes by so fast.

These are just some of the things I have been thinking about lately. If the past 20 weeks (ok more like 15 or 16 since I've known I was pregnant) have gone by so fast, what are the next few months going to be like? What about the few months after that? What about when I wake up one day and send my son off to college? Or watch him get married?

I think because of these feelings and because of the obvious, I really hate to hear people complain about being pregnant. I don't give a crap if you want a beer and can't have one for a couple more months! I don't care if you can't sleep! (Do you think that's going to change after you have a baby? haha) I just don't care. It is so special to be pregnant and carrying your child. Yeah, of course there are aches and pains, but I'd take all of those knowing that I get to experience this thing that so many women who desperately want to, can't. It just makes me sad to think about NOT enjoying pregnancy. Yes, I want our healthy baby here too, but once he comes, pregnancy is over. OVER! And if I can't ever get pregnant again, that was it. I want to look back on this time with a smile.