Another Thing...

....I have been thinking about a lot lately is the close of this pregnancy. Today I am 33 1/2 weeks and I just cannot believe how fast the time has gone by. In theory I could easily be pregnant for another 9 weeks or so, which is a fair amount of time for sure, or it could be more like 3-4 weeks!

I think I am slowly beginning to mourn my big pregnant belly and the whole experience already. I still go to work (all day at a client's office - ugh!) 2 days a week and yesterday I was driving up there which gives me lots of time to think. I almost started crying in the car because I am almost done being pregnant, and more so because I don't know if I will be pregnant again. I hope I am one of those women with PCOS who has a much easier time getting pregnant the second time.

I thought about it all day, even though my feet hurt the entire day and they are swollen and I was so tired from not sleeping well anymore, and still could not think of a reason I don't absolutely love being pregnant. This confused the husband when I talked to him about it last night seeing as lately I've just been in pain. Yes, I have, but I wouldn't trade it for the world and I would do it over again in a second. I told him how I was scared that this could be it and I may never have a chance to be pregnant again. Always the rational and simple one he said he wasn't worried because if I got pregnant once we can do it again. I guess he's partly correct in that we know it's at least now possible whereas before there were times were I just had no hope and just didn't know. But there are plenty of people who suffer from secondary infertility so I think it's a bit naive to believe that as well. But at least now we know what worked and will be able to go to that again if need be.

It's all very bittersweet. There is nothing I want more than our baby, but I know once he comes life will be completely different and even if I do get pregnant again, it won't be like this experience.