Sad

I just canceled our maternity pictures. I've been upset about it all day and just spent an hour talking to my husband about it after washing my face just now for bed. (which is quite the task when it is broken out this bad). My skin is disgusting. And I'm not talking about those girls who get A pimple and freak out. I have cysts on my forehead and even going towards my ears. I even tried to lay off dairy somewhat this week to prepare and it didn't help enough. My face is more red from acne than it is my actual skin color. I know, not pretty to think about. Hence the freaking about about our maternity session tomorrow.

Thankfully it worked out in that Kim is letting us 'transfer' our session fee that is paid to do baby pictures sometime. I don't know when they will be (nor do I really care, of course I want beautiful baby pictures however old he is!) and I told her whenever it works out that she is back in town will be more than fine with us. I feel so awful, but so relieved at the same time because I know this was the right decision for us right now. It sucks because besides my skin, I feel fairly cute and would have loved maternity pictures. I even bought new tops specifically for our shoot that I thought would be perfect. Maybe it's a blessing in disguise though because now we are getting some of the most beautiful baby pictures (seriously check her out!) ever, which is exciting and not something I had planned on doing because we were doing the maternity shoot. I'm still pretty bummed, but told my husband we need to get some pictures eventually of us ...just from far away! All I have are headless belly pictures so far!

I'm off to spend some time at my sewing machine to make me feel better. I have supplies to make Lucas a super soft blankie. I hope it turns out cuter than my face! er!