Told The Boss Today!

And how relieved to I feel that I don't have to suck in my bump, er, huge bloat, in at work now!!!

But let me start from the beginning. First of all, I was totally scared to tell him. It's just the two of us in the firm so that alone makes my work situation very different than most people. He also, jokingly because his last assistant got pregnant, told me when I started a year ago "don't get pregnant and don't get sick". If he only knew we were going through infertility the entire time I've worked for him so far. So I was dreading telling him. I really wanted to wait until the end of my first trimester or at the very least until my 3rd ultrasound next Wednesday at 8w2d.

My boss and I go to various client's offices throughout the week in addition to our own office and on Tuesdays and Thursday always spend a full day at a health care company with about 15 employees. We've only been going there since May (but he's known the owner for years, they are friends) but it's been kind of nice to have other "coworkers" around sometimes so we've gotten used to that and being, somewhat, part of the company.

Let me back up a tad more. Monday night after work I got pretty sick and didn't go to work Tuesday or Wednesday. I told my boss that I had a stomach thing, but didn't have a fever or congestion or anything so he was at a loss with what to "diagnose" me with as he likes to do. So today I go back to work and everyone is asking me how I am feeling and my boss is covering himself in Purel and still trying to figure out my symptoms to no avail. At this point I am starting to feel guilty.

Then, there I am sitting in my designated cube there at this company, and I overhear pretty much everyone else in the office freaking out over a pee stick another employee just peed on. Yup, right there at work, took a pregnancy test and told every body! She is engaged and already has 1 son (not engaged to his father) and was just like "I guess I am pregnant, sweet" and called her fiance on the phone!!! I couldn't believe it. I was in shock.

I so wanted to shout, "me too, me too", but was stuck. What should I do? I mulled it over for a couple hours and just couldn't take the combo of her telling everyone her stick said pregnant, er SHOWING them and everyone coming up to me asking how I was feeling and saying I still didn't look that great.

So i went into my boss's office and closed the door. Here we go.

"So I am not a good liar and I want to tell you that you won't catch what I have because I am pregnant".

You should have seen his face. He was actually surprised (I was afraid at that point he might have figured it out). I told him I really didn't plan to tell him while we were at someone elses office, but he was freaking me out freaking out about germs (he's like that) and w/ the other employee's news, I just couldn't lie anymore.

We got to talking for awhile and all is good. I told him we'd been going through infertility and because of the acupuncture and herbs it was actually a surprise as we didn't know when or if this would happen. Turns out, he and his ex wife (who have an adopted son) also went through infertility and we talked a while about the heartache and expense that goes along with that. He knew exactly what I'd been going through and so he could understand and be that much more happy for me, which was important to me. I really didn't want him to think I just got pregnant by accident. I thought having a conversation with my husband's grandma about my lack of ovulation was weird, let me tell you, having that conversation with my boss (I am still not sure how we got to THAT) was even weirder. But it was all OK and I feel free now.

He told me I could tell everyone else who we "work with" whenever I wanted and he wouldn't say anything. I didn't say anything today because I just didn't know how to. Do you gather everyone around? tell one person and let it spread? It was just weird, especially because I didn't want to "steal" the other girls' "thunder", even though I don't believe in that and I WAS pregnant first (and on purpose!). haha So no one else work related knows, but now I won't hide it and might say something to this older lady whom I really love on Tuesday and let it go from there.